Friday, January 22, 2010

Haiti on my mind


Days after the earthquake in Haiti, just now it is hitting me.  I have avoiding soaking it in.  Minimizing the time I watch or read the news.  Being a therapist, hearing about pain on a daily basis, the last thing I want to hear about is more sadness.  To see pain on a nationwide scale is unfathomable.  Pure shock.  I recently have explored the idea of going to Haiti (before deciding on Jamaica).  I had read a recent article in the Conde Nast Travel Magazine proclaiming it's praises.  Wyclef Jean quoted as saying Haiti's "future is bright." And it will be, with time, and healing from the world watching.

 I see the rescues on television, witnessing the gratitude of being saved.  Their faith in God and their culture is sung in makeshift homes, churches, or anywhere that can be heard.   I know looting, theft, and violence has also been looming.  Yet it is the strength that needs to remain prevalent in my memories of these moments.  A patient once told me he was able to get past the death of a friend through knowing that the pain in loss brought changes in himself and those around them.  Sadly grief unites us.  And the world needs to collectively heal.

I got sucked into watching the telethon for Haiti.  Impressed by the celebrities and musicians who offered their time.  I notice generally the same familiar faces frame the screen.  Momentarily their narcissism diminishes to be a vehicle for the message to remind it is our human duty to give.

Money, prayers, discussion, volunteer work, blogs, posts.  All payments accepted.

wed Jan 20th: flu season


My cold has hit it's pinnacle.  Sore throat, which has spread to my co-workers.  My lack of sick days has caused itchy throats and evil eyes in others.  Warm tea.  Mucous out. I have yet to be sick this past year in California, of course it coincides with the one week it rains.  The rain feeds the grass to grow.  My body is yearning for rest, and my cold will ensure it happens somehow. I go to work, and dream to sleep.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

MLK=Decision Day


With much trepidation, I gave up an enticing job offer.  A possible return to Hawaii, making slightly more money than I am now.  Yet, why no?  My gut growled no, it was not the right time. Although I have been looking for jobs for 6 straight months, this was the first yes.  I want to move, I want to switch jobs, but am I just addicted to change?  I can't keep an adult job for more than a year.  I think the thought of making a drastic change in 2 months scared me. 6 months more maybe. Now I am living in regret.

Sat The Healer in Me


Today I gathered the peace instilled in me and projected it towards others around me.  They needed healing and I realized this was the reason I came to Houston.  I tried to unite Anthony and his family towards helping his mother in her potential final days. She also asked for my help.   After the cleanse, completed several days prior, my body was giving out.  I grasped onto the last piece of energy I had and pushed it out towards them, even if only momentarily.

Fri Jan 15: Love Aflame


The excitement of seeing my fiance after two months of separation. The love, passion, and joy of simply being reunited.  I tend to forget the simple things I missed about him...the cuddling, laughter, inside jokes, kisses, and quick glances we make each other.  As the saying goes, distance can strengthen the relationship.  We talked, bared our souls, and played fun creative quiz games about each other.  Tonight we decided we could move to Hawaii with nothing but ourselves (although the next day it changed with Anthony seeing what an average Hawaiian apt. entails)

Thurs Jan 14: LA reunited


Delayed again, but the essence of the day was captured here.  Upon leaving for a trip to Houston, I met up with some old friends at Literati (a cutesy Brentwood cafe).  I could officially ate, but stuck to my soy latte.  Although this trip to Houston would be emotionally draining, meeting with old friends ignited my spirits.  Although it had been at least four years that all of us sat next to each other, the jokes remained the same.  Man voices, sexual innuendos, and simply quoting ourselves brought pure enjoyment. The silliness of women...straight, lesbian, and bi.  Pure comedy.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Jan 10: Mind over body


If yesterday just the thought of fattening food caused me to gain weight, today I am focused on being healthy and fit. These are the images that will fill my head.  It's 740 am, and in addition to the regular chores of the day, I will also take my dogs to the beach and swim at the gym.  I am focused on achieving my goals.  It is day 7 of the cleanse. 3 days left.  Although it is a struggle, I definitely recommend it.  It is a metaphor of all the goals you are able to achieve.  Every time I speak to someone about the cleanse, the first words out of their mouths are "I couldn't do that."  I thought the same things before.  Even while I am on the cleanse, I think never again.  But surprisingly this is my 5th cleanse in 4 years.  You can do it. The power of the mind!